"The darkness restores

what the light cannot repair"

((not sure if…

"the fear we feel as children

shapes the adults we become"

Sitting at the breakfast room in…

"We believe this group to be hostile" 

A blanket of thick hot air, laced with sweat and testosterone hit her instantly as she slipped into the back of the make shift room, taking her spot leaning against the back of the wall her arms folded over her chest one foot resting against the tight canvass she listened to Major Cumberland talk, he was as tall as he was wide,, a wall of solid muscle, his face covered in sweat like most of the men in the room, they were a strange collection of…

Some say there is nothing,,

no emotion,, no regret,, no remorse,,

Some say that a killer has no conscience,,

Maybe that's true,,

Even as I wash the blood from my hands I have no remorse for the action I just took, 

I do not regret the things I have done

Emotionless?

To a point perhaps,,

Somethings do not require emotions, 

taking the lives of others is one of them, 

Exhilaration,, that's an emotion right?

People…

The desert sun was hot on her skin,,

Looking over at Devin as they sped through the dunes in the buggy he offered her a smile,, she simply adjusted her sunglasses and looked the other way her hand gripping the roll bar as they weaved their way to the make shift…

Her dreams that night were different,,

They started the same as always,, she could feel the cold sand under her feet as she walked towards the fire, the moonlight carving its way in streaks across the sand as she walked,,, getting closer she could see him,, the fiery wolf and that's when it all changed,,

His eyes just as blue as hers stared at her,, the wolf becoming the man from tavern,, his smile dazzling as he held out his hand,,

The conflict in her brain was more…

"Jayden I need you to do something for me,,," Devin pulled her into his office looking around to see if she had been followed,,,

"Don't worry the drive here was seamless as always" He grunts running his hand through the tangled mess of bronze hair that graced his head causing his Angelic skin to appear so much paler and his green eyes much brighter, his grip was tighter than she'd have liked but she would let it go,, this time.

Releasing her arm he steps to his desk, his jeans…

"Are our dreams just our memories? people we pass on the street, things that happen to us,, we replay them all when the night its at it darkest,, when we are in our deepest sleep,, that's when they come alive,, that conversation we had earlier,, the look on someones face,, the bullet leaving your gun,, the slice you blade made,, the life you took,, the ones you love,, then as the morning sun rises they fade away,, lost forever in a kaleidoscope of colour,,  never to be seen again,,…

Something touched her,,,

A gentle hand as the lifeless bloody form of the Dark Angel was pulled off her, she couldn't open her eyes as exhaustion gripped her tightly as a vice, all she wanted to do was sleep, let the dark veil close in around her, she no longer felt the pain that tore into her that had long gone, now she just felt…

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Stood behind her was,,, her,, an exact replica,, only,,, dark,,

Her wings a rainbow of black like an oil slick, her eyes as dark as the night, her skin glowing silver like the midnight sun, she gripped her Seraph blade as it hummed glowing with a tainted…

http://youtu.be/jJ-U-Oh5_Ek

Small balls of fire, littered the sands around her,, some just small piles no bigger than her fist,, others coming up to her knees,, dropping her arms by her sides she shrugs off the tattered cloak letting burn on the floor around her feet, there was no armor underneath, no protection from the demons.

Dressed from head to toe in…

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The sound of three thuds falling around her broke her trail of thought.

They were here,,, it was time,, do,, or die.

She gripped her staff tightly her knuckles turning white, she knew…

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The Arena,,

The place where her kind came to die or to fight for their lives,, it was never a choice to be here,, if you were you had messed up,, and messed up she had.

She was in love with a downworlder,, she worked for another, she left Idris and had stayed away, she had destroyed the Clave and the darkness that rushed inside her veins, that…

"The hardest ones to love are the ones that need it most" She had heard that some where though she wasn't sure where.

Sitting in a small stone room she waited to enter the Arena, though her heart beat was steady she still paced, caught between wanting to live and hoping to die.…

The young man sat before her couldn't have much older than thirty, dressed in his immaculate suit with one leg crossed over the other his mop of hair looked strangely out of place against the neatness of his attire, she felt like a dirty smudge against the clean lines of the sterile room, she sat dressed head to toe in black her white blonde hair pulled back in a messy pony tail, at least she could shower before this…

"They say the one thing lost is another thing gained,, I can't help but wonder exactly what I will gain from this,, humility? the chance to actually think for myself rather than rely on something else,, maybe the chance to prove that I can be just like them even without the support to fall back on,, either way,, I know that I don't like to be without them"

The Angel fire burned around her wrists but it no longer hurt,, what did that mean? she couldn't feel it any more? she no longer…

She stood there in the middle of the of the Silent Brothers chambers, 

No thoughts crossed her mind, in this place nothing was your own so she kept her mind as blank as possible,,,,, its not difficult keeping a broken mind empty,,,

Lowering her head in a respectful nod she watches the Brothers before her,,,

All dressed in off white runed robes only their faces showed,, hollow blind eyes stare at her,, their mouths sown shut,, their skin white/grey so paper thin it looked…

The cell she sat in was nothing but darkness,,,

She had been here before but this time she had more time to reflect,, more time to think about everything she was leaving behind,,,

One way or another she would be walking away from everything she knew, the place she called home,, her friends,,

The stone floor she sat on had a layer of slime covering it, the walls she rested her head against sticky,, both these things made her glad she couldn't see,, the smell made her…

Its true,, 

Everything has a beginning a middle and an end,, 

Every chapter,, every note,, every resonating sound,, 

Goodbye is a hard word,, I don't think I'm going to say it,, 

I have never felt so alone,, 

I don't need a conscience to tell me how I feel,,

I don't need these weary eyes to focus on what to conceal,,

I don't need anyone to tell me who I am,,

Blame it on a broken heart,, I'm falling apart again,, 

I'm broken,,…

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"The flames dance in the fire place, its mystical to watch, 

The world around me, seems to have slowed but I can still hear it,, still feel it,, maybe it just wont go away, the more I try to push it away the more it pushes its way through,,

Am I drowning or waving?

I just need you to save me,,,

But I know that no-one can,,, no-one can stop the inevitable,…