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My Story Is...

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The product of a coffin birth, Ostara was born from death, the unborn foetus expelled from her mother’s womb hours after her burial had taken place and the unfortunate pregnant woman had been laid to rest. It was by sheer luck, that the lonely caretaker of the old cemetery had heard her distant cries from beneath the freshly turned soil as she slipped into darkness. A coffin death was rare in itself but for a child to survive such a thing? Unheard of, impossible. Except, that is what happened. From that moment on, Ostara was destined to walk between the veil of life and death, stuck between two worlds yet belonging to neither.


Mortal eyes were never meant to glimpse the things that Ostara was exposed to from the moment she drew breath. Spectres and demonic forces plagued the child from infancy for she was a beacon of light in their otherwise dark world and slowly, the girl was driven to the brink of madness by the time she was barely old enough to walk. The people of her village, her father included, were terrified of the child whose birth was considered unholy, an affront to the natural order, the girl who held whispered conversations with the walls and ripped her own strands of hair from their roots.


After a particularly violent and frightening episode, the townspeople could bare the strange girl’s presence no longer and to save her from execution on the charge of witchcraft, her father stole the child away before abandoning her at the Silent Sisters, a temple nestled deep in the Orisha woods. The forest was the last refuge of those who did not fit into the fringes of society or normalcy, a place outsiders rarely tread for fear of their lives and mortal souls. Those that lived here worshipped a collection of night and death deities.


Ostara as a child


Ostara was raised by the three sisters who ran the temple. Each had voluntarily stripped away one of their own senses, taking firm vows of silence. Nuami had sacrificed her vision, having blinded herself with poison, Zoya had her tongue removed with a sharpened knife whilst Estyn kept her ears plugged with hot wax. It was the three sisters that brought Ostara back from the ledge of insanity on which she teetered with each woman bestowing the girl with a gift, designed to protect and guide.


It was Zoya that spent many hours teasing and twisting the young girl’s hair as she fought back tears, her scalp bruised and patchy in places until the multi coloured strands were able to be woven into a thick mess of dreadlocks and braids that could not be easily wrenched from the roots by the demonic creatures that plagued her and by the girl herself for to pluck at the strands had become a habit, a coping mechanism.


From Estyn’s own hands, silver rings were crafted, imbued and engraved with protective runes that could aid Ostara in defending herself against psychic and spiritual attacks. The peculiarly fashioned metal fitted so tightly to her wrists and ankles that for weeks her limbs ached with bruising and poor circulation but in time, she slowly adjusted to the decorative rings that were designed to never be removed.


But it was Nuami that she forged the greatest bond with for it was her that offered the greatest gift of all, teaching the young girl the craft of dream weaving. Able to enter her own dreamscape and those of others, Ostara was finally able to experience the freedom and silence that had always been restricted to her in her waking hours for indeed the only time the woman is able to escape the whispers of the dead is when her eyes fall shut and she flees to a world of her own making, a place that bends to her will and warps to satisfy her every whim, a changing landscape controlled by her mind and influenced by the desires of none other then her own.


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Ostara currently lives deep in the Orishan Woods though she mostly keeps to herself, closeted away in the flooded section of forest that collapses into fresh water swamp and marshland. A memory collector, she offers a variety of services to both the living and dead though the payment she requires in return varies from person to person and if she develops a particular fixation with someone, she may request a piece of their being such as a fragment of bone, a tooth, a strand of hair, an eyelash.






My Appearance

Symbolising her ability to see beyond the veil of life and death, Ostara was born with a mismatched gaze, her left eye a pale pastel blue hidden behind an milky ivory haze that misleads people into believing she has limited vision or partial blindness. The right is a black abyss of darkness, devoid of light and color except for the small fleck of green that is only sometimes visible. A crescant moon often lurks in the space between those eyes, painted in glittering gold, silver or the deepest shade of charcoal.


A similar comparison between light and dark can be seen in her mass of braids and dreadlocks, a medley of colors ranging from silver, pearl and grey to black, burgundy and earth toned browns. The thick woven strands often decorated with brighty coloured string, beads or tiny bells. She has very pale skin, akin to the color of porcelain. Around her throat, she wears a collection of oddly assorted charms and pendants that no ordinary person would choose to adorn themselves with and which she keeps mostly hidden away, tucked into her bustline.