It’s no secret, anymore… that I really have fallen for someone. That I have grown soft, and opened up to my closest friends. The hardest part about all of this is…the worst part about it…. I don’t want to leave. I know that one day, my compassion for those I hold dear… it will kill me. They will be the cause of my death, and yet…. I don’t care. With every fiber of my being, I’ll protect my family… my… my pack. I’ll protect my home to the bitter end. Why? Because… I need them.. I don’t want to lose them.
What terrifies me more than knowing that I care..than knowing that I truly do love someone.. is that I will lose them. If I can’t protect my own family, then my very life is less than meaningful. I won’t allow myself to grow weak. I won’t allow myself to hold back when the time for action is needed. Yes, they will be the death of me. And no, while that scares me… No, I will never run away like I had in the past. I will never regret growing close to the people that I have in my life.
Sloane… A Grizzly bear.. MY Grizzly bear. She is more important to me than anything in this world.. in this life time. Just as…they all are. My home is Persistence. My family..my pack is the Rogues. My loved one is Sloane Artair, Grizzly shifter, warrior, beautiful woman. I used to be so cold… so distant and just…worse than I am now. But Grizz found her way into my head… heart. She is the arrow in my heart that I never want to have removed. The arrow that, while it kills me, I don’t want to lose. Without Sloane, I wouldn’t be who I am today. That much I know for sure. I am not the me…that I used to be.
I am a Wolf. A beast, and Hunter of the Night. The moon is my guide, as are the stars. The moon is one of the most important parts of my life, like those I love. And the sun is my lamp…my light that shows me everything that I have is special…
They have all changed me for the better. They are my family, my pack, and my home. But I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world. And when the time comes, that my death is near, I will embrace it. Because they have set on me. But they are not the Sun. And that…that is just fine.